Well, I never thought I'd have a blog. I never thought I'd have a reason to need one. I definitely never thought I'd be sitting here, at a computer, writing about my fast-approaching DTS experience.
For the past few years, I've watched friends go out into the world to experience life-changing DTS experiences. I've been the listening ear as they recounted stories, new relationships, and miracles they had witnessed. I've sat back, completely content to be the onlooker. "Thank you, God, that you are not calling me to foreign missions," I'd think to myself as my friends came and went.
There is a reason why seasoned Christians will advise that you should never tell God what you don't ever want to do. I've watched friends of mine fall prey to this same folly. Let me just say that God is a good God. He doesn't force us into situations we don't want to be in. He simply points us in the best direction, and invites us to join Him. Many times, the road we'd least like to travel down, is the very road that will challenge us and shape us into the people He has destined us to be; the person He already views us as. This, though it probably won't be easy, truly is the best road. Some choose to set out, while others will turn the other direction.
I'm not sure I'll ever quite understand what led me to the decision of a YWAM DTS. All I know is that, in the middle of relearning the passions and desires God has given me, somehow my heart changed. He began to give me a new passion I had never known. I began to long for the abnormal; the unfamiliar. This little corner of the world that I have always lovingly called "home" now seemed small. I still love this area and the people here that have become my family, but I want more. I want to meet new believers that I otherwise would never know. I want to be uncomfortable, stretched to my limits, and learn more and more what it means to rely solely on God for his comfort, provision, and love. I want to use every ounce of gifting He has given me for His glory. I want to fall in love with other nations and love His people as Christ has loved me. Alone, I am completely incapable, but with the power of God's Spirit walking with me, I know I can do this.
Undoubtedly, I will come back changed. I'm not going to be the same person that I am now, and for that I am incredibly grateful. God has placed an opportunity before me that I never thought I would choose. Now, it is the only thing I want to choose. I long to be more and more the woman He is making me to be; yielded in every way for His glory and purposes. By your strength alone, God.
~Megan
